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Please God Watch Over Him

kso ... I really wanna ball my eyes out right now. I just found out that my baby is really really sick :( Now , after he came home from his game on tuesday , I didn't talk to him because i guessed that he woulda went to sleep from how tired he was. The next day I called back asking mark to speak to him. He told me how lloyd was the doctors and that he got sick all of sudden. So I just told mark to tell lloyd to call me afterwards when he comes back. Now later on that day around almost 9:30 pm... I was talking to ebuka. I was wondering why lloyd hadn't called me yet. Ebuka told me to call ,but as always , I was too scared. But a few minutes later i finally had the balls to call. Once I called , mark answered the phone once again. I then asked mark where lloyd is. He replyed by saying " oohhhh yeeeah" which sounded like he forgot to tell him. So i then said yo u forgot to tell him didn't you ? he said no. So I wondered why he didn't call me still. He said how lloyd was still really sick and that he can't talk on the phone. so I said alright , just tell him to call me when hes feeling better. Now I had to repeat that a number of times because mark was busy giving my baby his medicine and talking to his mom sister and me at once. So today I went to school waiting to come back home to talk to lloyd. I was wrong once again. I waited and waited all day for him to go online or call me. But just a few minutes ago his Tita Cel msged me on facebook saying how they had to take him to the emergency room at 4 in the morning. My heart just dropped from there! I couldn't believe what I was reading. She also told me how Tita Evelyne ( their mom ) was very worried. I feeel her pain , I know whats she going through , But i know shes having a harder time because it's her own son. I know if i had a son , i would be worried like she is. But anyways , she then continued by saying how hes still burning hot with a fever .. I was so devastated to hear that :( But that's not it... just when i thought something worse couldn't happen , she then said that they might have to bring him to sick kids hospital. Once again my heart dropped even more. I can't believe this is all happening. my poor baby , what horrbile feeeling he mmust be going through. But i pray to god that it's just a really bad fever and nothing else. Please God watch over him in his time of need. Please , i pray and beg of you. I dont wanna see anything else happen to my baby. I love him oh so much and I would die if you take him away from me. Now me and tita cel couldn't talk for a longer period of time because they were going to take lloyd to the hospital. Now baby , I know you can't read this right now but , Be strong baby .. yes I know you always say that to me , But now its my turn .. Baby listen to me , You have to be strong and fight .. I know you dont want anything worse to happpen and so does everyone else. Everyone is praying for you baby .. You know i love you soo much soo please get better , and not just for me , but for your friends and family , everyone is worried. I really dont know what else to say , I'll just be balling my eyes out afterwards. I'm gonna go for a walk right now to take my mind off of everything , think things through and what not. So that's all i gotta say , I had to get that out .. And now i feel a little better. So god please watch over him and protect him from any danger. Hope you get better SOOOON baby , I LOVE YOU